WTF

Hate..
It's a strong word, don't you think?
Instead of saying,
I hate it..
Why don't they just say,
I really don't like it..

What made the difference?
What is it that pisses you out more from one thing to the other?
What do you really don't like and what do you hate?

Here's one..
When you've already tried your best..
Given all that you've got..
Making to dos list..
Checking it twice..three times..
Doing it by yourself..
No one's helping..
Not even offering to help..
Doing it overtime..
Not getting enough sleep
Going through everything..
Back and forth..up and down..
And still, you forgot to do one thing..
You missed something
Really don't like that!!

Even worse,
someone who's supposedly can help you..
but didn't, questions you about it..
Hate that!!!

OK, what about this..
When you've really tried hard to wrap things up..
Yell to people around you to chop - chop..
Even sacrificed something important..
And lied to people..
just to leave early..
and get to the place on time..
But the time you got there..
Other people who's also involved..
was sooo late..
Really don't like that!!

Worse scenario..
The thing was canceled..
because of all the lateness..
Hate that!!!

Ok..ok..ok..try this one..
You've been working your ass on it..
Pouring all of your energy, heart, mind and soul in it..
Done the researches..
Gone through your trial and errors..
Read, browse, ask people,
compare with other works..
Then, when you finally finished it..
and going to show it..
Someone else has got the similar idea..
Really don't like that!!

And to make it worse..
That person got to show it first..
and got all the credits for it..
Hate that!!!

This one's sucks the most..
When you know you're doing something you're not supposed to..
But you do it anyway..
You took the chance..
You only live once..
and maybe it won't come again..
So, it's worth doing..
You willingly took all the risk..
Knew all the consequences..
Even though..
Everyone and everything around you kept on giving sign..
You ignored it..
And when it finally gone bad..
It hits you hard..
Really don't like that!!

The feeling that you're so stupid
because you had known better..
but you still did it..
The feeling that everyone are now saying..
"I told you so.."
even if they don't say it to your face..
HATE THAT!!!

But shit happens, right?
What don't kill you, makes you stronger..

And all of that are situational, aren't they?
You can't hate the person who's involve..
They were just the right person in the right place at the right time..
or in this case.. the wrong one..
And don't you dare hate yourself..
You did the best that you could do that time..
or at least, you thought you did..

Just take a deep breath..
Inhale..exhale..inhale..exhale..
Deep ones...deeper ones..the deepest one..
Take your time..
Don't keep trying to analyze it..
Lay back..
Make peace with yourself..

InsyaAllah..
You'll get over it..
You'll survive..
It'll be your living experience..
It'll be your guidance..
Amiiin..

Inhale...exhale..